Mistakes were made!

So i did something so wrong i feel dirty from inside I molested him I don't even know why i just wanted to have sex,
it was back in November when this happened and I did something wrong, I've apologied, but I'm a monster to have sexually harrased someone who was before sexually harassed
I feel so stupid for this things, and now he decided rightfully to leave me, I am now single and I know why and I'm a monster
I want to be togheter with him, I want to be a better version of myself, I am so fucked up and I hate myself I hate it I sometime don't want to thing because of myself I don't know if I deserve something
I am really disgusting